impossible?

so, when I was at earth core, and I wrote: "ok life I'm ready to get into the ring, show me what you have got!" I never-ever expected life to unfold as it has... the sheer drama of this story is crazy.

every day is like a new me; and a new challenge, or a new mood to confront. And a new puzzle or dead end to unravel.

I think of a solution for my computer problem; and it results in a dead end - then i think of another solution; and it too fails...
this process continues until all hope seems lost; but others around me are telling me I "will" play at uprising; with such conviction - who am I to argue with their conviction?

How odd it is that to play at the first NZ festival I had to loose my bag and then find it again - all at the last minute and suddely: there was light; i could play!

Now with my laptop damaged, it all seems to be replay; the drama is lasting longer; but the gravity of the situation is diminnsed [its just broken stability, no loss of data]

So I've tried to ask about a dozen people if they had a mac.The people who have one, are not willing to lend it; those that are willing to lend their computers, do not have the type of machine I require.

I've tried using PC's; ive gone to peoples homes; people have called up 2nd hand listings to ask if they can "rent" me a computer... I've even considered buying a 2nd hand laptop which i would then sell later again for the same price! All so I can just play for new years - I've NEVER tried so hard to play for a gig before in my life! Am I crazy?

Yes, I think I am - cause at this very moment I'm typing to you from a brand new laptop - I bought a new one. And if all goes well; I have 14 days to return it, no questions asks; full refund! A mircale! I swear I really was getting to the point where I was giving up and about to resort to playing from CDs...!!!!

So, not everything will work; but it will be 95% working; I'm sure of it - which is a big enough percentage for me!

Wow! The impossible IS possible! If anything this seems to be the message I am getting from all directions now...

Did I already mention that I passed a rock a few days ago that someone had written on... it said "turn me over"...
so I did... and on the back it said:

"Ahhhh!" thats better!

Which ran a chill down my spine! Cause this is EXACTLY what the card I drew at burningman said! How freaky!

Anyways; i'm extatic; but also overwhelmed, and still stressed [still a lot of computer work ahead of me to install everything and test] - the people I am staying with are very lovely; and I've had some really interesting conversations with the other fellow woofers; but there is also drama here.

I've been taking care of sheep! And we went to get them shaved [poor things] I can't believe how fearful they are of people!

I've also done some mulching, cooking and fruit picking - but funnily enough I'm also doing a lot of computer work for them too! Installing software, tutorials, getting CD writers to work, speach to text programs... you name it! Haha, I'm "technologicising" the farm life...
;-)

Ok, I'll report back again - hopefully before the new years festival; but its going to be happening, I know it! Life is crazy! That's all I can say...

And yes, I submit to the widom of the world:

"Nothing is impossible!"

Don't believe, KNOW