Essential happiness

Despite all the gravity, i'm incredibly happy and after just 1 day of minor dispair; I'm back on my feet - life is exciting, it's charged electric, new zealand is really interesting place, especially here in the Nelson/Golden bay area.

Two days ago I met Helen, Allan and Ras; 3 new friends in Motueka. We went to this really cool bar at the edge of the huge abel tasman national park and it felt like i was back in tahiti - only colder...
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All 3 of these lovely people were very interesting. Helen and I have a lot in common, and hours of talking behind us - and hopefully; hours of talking ahead of us. She is really cool and from what little I've heard so far, she truly has earned my highest respect. She's a wealth of interesting knowledge, into magic, hiking and an extreme activist... I remember seeing her on TV getting out of a tree she tied herself to in england, back when there were protests against deforestation. I feel like there is a lot I can learn from her; so I'm really looking forward to getting to know her more the next time I'm in Motueka.

Ras and Allan are true rastas. Which is terribly exciting as well; it's like a whole new world that I've always been around, but never really truely experienced. My first lesson was all about the jesus the rasta and the chalice.
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[no I have no plans to become rasta myself! though I'm sure that was on your mind!]

I arrived last night at my farm stay, north of Nelson in the hills. 30 or so acres of land all filled with organic trees. I'll be working her this week - with the children, the couple and 2 other woofers; I have my own private fire cabin - very cosy and nice! Will tell more as I get my fingers green.

Dealing with laptop still, problem is elusive and computer shop found no issues - so deciding whether to reinstall entire laptop or not - costing me grief and time. Will I play or not? It's very uncertain.

Oh and I'm quitting sugar - though doing it in phases.

Some nice quotes from me or others in the last few days:

"Consumption ahead, crap behind us"
The cycle of current mankind, capitalism, and the general mode of society.

"happiness vs. challenges"
most people want to be content and secure, they are happy when there lives are simple and unchallenged - who is to say that this is wrong? after all; they are happy. My goal is to stimulate thought, questions - but how to you combine this with the principle that "if people are happy; what can you say wrong about it?"
the security vs. challenge also plays into work. the more you please people's need for comfort; the more money you make - if you try and challenge them, you earn less money; this works in nearly all commercial principles. I'm pondering right now if there are exceptions and where this logic will lead me. Helen had some cool insight here.

"we are all happy, if we just allow ourselves to be"
I think we are all happy, all the time - but we find excuses and reasons not to be. I really do feel that chaos and order - destiny or choice are all but reflections of the same thing. the chance that one drop lands on my head from a water fall is unavoidable; but if you tries to predict which one would hit my head its chaotic and impossible. [for the math heads: all sums reach limits; so even chaos systems achieve order in a different [time] context]. therefore a system is either chaotic or determinaistic; it is both. therefore life is both freedom of choice; and predetermined destiny. or put another way: life is completly not in your control and everything that happens to you in life happens to you because you [secretly] wished it. I've been concious durring REM sleep [many years ago at least twice] and there have been enough precognitive dreams/visions in my life now that I can say for myself that life is certainly not what it seems to be [to most]. Time is the illusion...

I have to run, or I'd write more! Updates to follow...
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merry xmass everyone!!!!