West coast wind and coasters

Phew, lets breath for a second. I can barely keep up with life at the moment. So many things happening... each day, every new thought could be a blog report.

The country is stunning, the nature is breath taking, paradise on earth is here, for sure.

Harmony has been a challenge to achieve, our traveling group slowly witless away like the fellowship of the ring, which is sad, because it's not supposed to be like this, but somehow it is - and I trust that its the best for all of us. From 6 our numbers have now become 3, and after Suzanne leaves as well, it will become just 2: Richard and myself.

Combining various desires is hard, I'm the only one who has a calling to the glaciers - and I have to somehow mediate this reality between others.

Paparoa park was unbelievably gorgeous, and we also just spent 2 days realizing on a beach in a tent where there was a secret chamber locked behind two rifts of rock where ceremonial fires were built before mud wall caves, inverted pyramid rocks and 10 meter long dripping waterfalls.

Suzanne and I have become close, and while I can't define what it is we have, it's become at least an intimate friendship. We have both been going through a lot of self-confrontation; asking ourselves the meaning of core dilemmas, balancing choices, seeking answers.

At the moment we are in Greymnouth, trying to figure out where we go next, and which path to follow. My mood today has been troubled, I feel a bit displaced from my own character as I struggle to define what it is I need to admit to myself that i am [apparently] covering.

However, one of the most amazing new things in my life has been a new book. The title "Seth speaks":

http://www.amazon.com/Seth-Speaks-Eternal-Validity-Soul/dp/1878424076/sr=8-1/qid=1168649021/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/103-0111381-5673477?ie=UTF8&s=books

A multidimensional being explains, erm: everything, the nature of consciousness, death, life the soul... it all rings true and home for me; so it's like reading gospel; which makes me at the same time somewhat hesitant to accept it as the truth, but I am dealing with my double feelings... awe, understanding, knowledge and new heights of awareness coupled with new longings for even a further spread into the unknown infinity of knowledge.

time has run out, my blessings to you all,

sebastian.